My doctors decided that radiation was an important step for my cancer treatment. I was surprised and a bit disappointed. However, I’ve come this far and didn’t want to stop short of doing all that I could to keep it from coming back. Statistically, radiation could make a significant difference in my chances of local recurrence. So… Here we go.
I was laying on the cold metal table waiting for the nurses to get me positioned just so. My hands were above my head clutching a bar. Plastic had been molded around my arms and head so that my position wouldn’t change during treatment. Large robotic type machines were moving into place and then changing positions. I could see the nurses and myself in their reflection, so I closed my eyes.
The problem with closing my eyes is that I get in my head. I start thinking. I start wondering if the nurses have me positioned right and if some of the radiation will accidentally hit my heart and my lungs. I wonder if it’s going to work and keep the cancer from returning or if this is all a big waste of time and energy. I wonder how long I have before it all comes crashing down.
Then I remember…
I remember how far God has brought me. I remember how God has never left me and has promised to be with me. I remember that he alone is my portion and my cup. I remember that he will keep me safe. I remember that he makes known to me the path of life. I remember that the boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places. I remember that the heavens declare the glory of God. I remember that this world is not my home. I remember that my heart is glad, my tongue rejoices, my body also can rest secure because he will not abandon me to the realm of the dead. I remember that I cry out to him and he answers me. I remember that his love surrounds me.
I remember.
Thank you, God.
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I had hopes you could skip this step as well. I think I feel some of your disappointment, but we both know God has this and holds you tenderly in His loving arms. I pray as you lay withing the confines of your radiation cloak, that it will feel like a great big hug from Jesus and all of the friends and family who constantly keep you in prayer while sending the deepest of love to you. You have never quit anything you laid your hand to. God has blessed you with an amazing ability to excel…….because your FAITH never waivers. Love you forever and a day my precious friend!
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Love you, too! Thank you for the encouragement!! Hope to see you soon!
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My sweet friend, I share your disappointment. But what a blessing that our Father had gifted these men and women with the knowledge and ability to perform these treatments. At every step He is carrying for you and loving you. You thank others for encouragement, but you are the encouragement for so many. God bless. I love you!
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My sweet friend, I share your disappointment. But what a blessing that our Father had gifted these men and women with the knowledge and ability to perform these treatments. At every step He is caring for you and loving you. You thank others for encouragement, but you are the encouragement for so many. God bless. I love you!
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Every step… You’re so right. Thank you for your kind words. Love you!
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You are very eloquent. Wishing you all the best!
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Thank you so much! I really appreciate it.
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Praying for healing and peace of mind that the Lord places a guard around both your heart and mind as you walk this journey. He is mighty in you.
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Thank you, Tara. Your words are so encouraging. I’m praying for all of you. You have shown so many of us how the love of God changes everything. Much love ~
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